I recently lost someone who was so tremendously special to me that I often cannot speak of him without becoming overwhelmed with emotion. It has taken me almost exactly 1 month to even be able to get this far in my thoughts. In this very moment, I feel like I am allowing my fingers to move across the keyboard praying that God type this for me. Perhaps so that I can express…something.
I believe that every person that is a part of our lives has been placed there for a reason. There are those people who may only be with us in a passing moment, for a 5 minute conversation or for a season. Then there are those who make a stamp on our heart forever. The loss of those people are the ones that help us to understand what people mean when they say “they will be with me for the rest of my life.” I have lost other special people in my life over the years and believe me their stamp remains on my heart.
Deep, dark stamps as if my heart was an open passport as they traveled from this life to the next.
The loss of these particular people have left me in a state of such deep self reflection that I often withdraw except to a select few who know the depths of my soul and are intimately familiar with the inner workings of my mind that make me….me. Perhaps you read this now as dark, depressing and far from uplifting. Welcome to grief. The struggle of expressing joy when your heart feels so much sadness. So what I can do right now is give you this.
I know 3 things without a doubt tonight:
Faith: God is real and he is with me.
Hope: Heaven is filled with joy and I have hope that each day God will bless me with glimmers of joy.
Love: The one who stamped my heart gave love unconditionally , I will also give love unconditionally because God loves me unconditionally.
1 Corinthians 13:13
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.